Saturday, March 29, 2014

Healthy Banana Pancakes



So as of now there are only two things that my toddler eats for breakfast.  Banana pancakes and porridge/congee.  I guess 6 months of having a soft boiled egg for breakfast has ruined an egg breakfast for him.

This recipe for banana pancakes is super easy and nutritious.  I don't offer maple syrup because they are naturally sweet but they are yummy with it as well.  The original recipe I was given contained just banana and eggs.  I found that the pancakes were too thin and eggy tasting.  A friend suggested I add buckwheat to thicken it up.  Since we don't really eat buckwheat in my house, I added millet and they came out amazing.

Millet is a super grain.  It is naturally alkaline and digests easily.  Millet hydrates the colon keeping the bowels moving and is also acts as a prebiotic keeping your gut flora healthy.  It's gluten free.  And it is high in protein.

My favorite thing to do is make a bunch of grain for dinner and then use the left-overs the next morning for pancakes or congee.

Here's a quick and easy recipe for a batch of pancakes for 2-3 hungry people.  I can't be exact as to how many pancakes I made because my child was eating them as fast as I was making them.

Ingredients

- 2 bananas
- 4 eggs
- left over grains (oatmeal, millet, buckwheat, etc)  apprx 1/2 cup but add slowly you are looking for pancake consistency
- a bit of cinnamon and vanilla

Cooking

Put all the ingredients into the blender and puree.  (I have made them before by hand and they come out well but I found blending the grains with the mixture is even better.) Put some butter or coconut oil in your pan.  Flame on low heat. Pour your batter in small pancakes and wait for bubbles to appear in the center.  Then flip.  Tada!  Banana pancakes!  

Monday, March 24, 2014

March 25 Talk Show: Chinese Medicine, Fertility, Pregnancy, & Birth



Join Dr. Lisa Wilson, D.O.M, along with hosts, Dr. Lily Love and Dr. Eric Grasser, as she discuses the effectiveness of utilizing Chinese Medicine in the treatment of fertility, conception, pregnancy and birth.  The show airs Tuesday evening, March 25, at6:30 on KSFR 101.1. Or, listen to the pod cast at:  http://eastwestmedicine.libsyn.com



Sunday, March 23, 2014

I hate myself



Wow!  Those are some really harsh words to say.  And you might be thinking "Girl you are being a bit dramatic!".  But have you ever heard the saying that "when you say no to something, you are saying yes to something else"?  Well, I became highly aware today that I have been saying a big fat NO to self acceptance and by default saying YES to self judgement, criticism, and maybe even hatred.

Today I went to a yoga class.  And I decided to wear the new Lululemon sports bra I splurged on this week.  About ten minutes into the class, I removed my tshirt and was yoga-ing in my sports bra and yoga pants. (It was super hot in there!)  To an outsider I probably appeared to be very confident in my own skin.  Especially to be exposing the most vulnerable tender part of my abdomen!  But you know what I did for at least half the class and in most of the poses?!  Judged and criticized my body!

"Ew!  Look at how my belly hangs like that!"

"Gosh I wonder if my stomach looks that massive to everyone else?"

"My thighs look squishy!"

"Wonder if the girl behind me sees what I see?!"

I mean seriously!  I am a yoga teacher.  I am someone who claims to be practicing a path of self awareness and personal growth.  And there I was taking jabs at poor little Nancy the entire class.  Granted I was aware of that voice the entire class and that's a huge step.  I was aware enough to have moments where I came back to the present moment, back to my breath, and back to the wholeness and beauty that are me.  But my monkey mind was persistent.

At some point my teacher, Josh, was speaking of surrender.  The strength in surrender.  The softness of surrender.  The fear of death.  The fear of letting go.  Surrendering into the pulsing river of life.  All concepts and words that I myself have spoken to students in my own classes.  But today when I was on the receiving end, it really hit me how deeply and profoundly pregnancy, birth, and motherhood have altered me.

When I heard the words "softening" and "surrender" together, my mind drifted to the softening of my body when I was pregnant and after childbirth.  The softening that happened to my body even with all my best efforts to stay tone and fit.  The softening that allowed new life to come into this world.  A softening that I struggled to surrender to.  A softening that I look at disdainfully now.

The hardest part of my pregnancy was the lack of control I had over my own body.  I did not gracefully surrender to the changes that were happening both internally and externally.  I watched like an outsider...white knuckled in fear.  Would my body return to it's sexy tone shape that I had identified as a part of myself?  Would I get stretch marks?  Would my boobs sag after breastfeeding?  Would I go back to being ME?

And just as I feared, I did not return back to "normal".  I am now 16 months postpartum and have come to realize that there is no way that things can go back to the way they used to be.  I am no longer that person...nor can I be that person.  My baby stretched, softened, and tore my body and my soul.

The pressure women feel to "get their bodies back" after childbirth is screwed up.  It's a complete lie!  You can never "get your body back" because you have a whole new body.  And I am not saying that you cannot loose weight, regain toneness, and all that jazz.  Yes, you can indeed do all of those things, but the false hope that you will go back to how you used to be is just B.S.

Motherhood changes you in ways that you never knew possible.  What I became aware of today was the amount of resistance I have put up towards the new version of me.  The amount of control and force I have used towards myself to try to regain something that I can never obtain.  That pulsing river of life has made me a mother. It has given me the most precious gift in the form of my child. And instead of surrendering to that change, appreciating myself in all my strength and beauty, I have been resisting.

So do I love myself now after realising all this?  NO.  But I am trying.   I don't feel that there is an end to this practice.  Each day I am new and each day I must recommit to allowing life to unfold as it will.  Resistance is suffering.  True love is total acceptance.  And for me surrendering to the softness of my body and heart is a practice.


With so much love,

xoxo

Nancy


P.S.  If you'd like to read another great article about postpartum body image click here.  Thanks Amy!

Friday, March 21, 2014

Prenatal Consciousness

Photo: Gurudarshan Khalsa
After watching a Ted talk video on conception to birth, I was inspired to write about prenatal consciousness.  When does human consciousness begin?  What does that matter and how does it effect the baby?  How can we positively alter humanity by shifting our attitude towards pregnancy?

Have you ever heard the saying "You began as a twinkle in your parent's eyes"?   Parents act as genetic and epigenetic engineers for their child months before conception.  It really does make a difference whether you born in love, haste or hate.  The energy that parents hold vibrationally leading up to and at the moment of conception are passed along to the embryo and developing fetus.

From preconception onward the experience in the womb shapes the development of the brain and nervous system. Thus the expression of health, personality, emotional temperment, and power for higher thought are affected.

Here's a break down of prenatal development

12 Days Gestation
- first heart cells form

32 Days Gestation 
- brain is formed

6 Weeks after Conception
- central nervous system is established
- heart is beating
- fetus responds to touch

12 Weeks Gestation
- responds to light, sound, and taste
- kicks, sucks his thumb, swallows, breaths, and digests.
-At about this time the fetus is taking in their envioronment through the electromagnetic field of the mother

16 Weeks
- brain has structure for implicit memory
- shows signs of indivudual behavior
- has facial expressions similar to parents
- does intentional behavior

24 Weeks
- baby responds with precise movement to each sound in the parent's speech
- reacts to arguing
- holds umbilical cord when mom smokes or ingests other drugs
-heart rate increases if mom thinks about a cigarette
- very rapid brain growth

German researcher Dr. Gerherd Schroth found that by the second half of the pregnancy babies are definitely open to direct communication.  He found that if mothers spent time in quiet stillness each day they would begin to develop a strong sense of what their baby wants to communicate.  He found that they could ask direct questions and get accurate answers.  Also women that spent time connecting with their child this way would have easier birth and postnatal period.

There are therapists, such as Myrna Martin,  that work with children with emotional and developmental issues that focus on their prenatal experience.  She uses sand boxes with toys and allows children to "play" their experience.  More often then not what she has found that children will always make two scenarios in the sand box.  One prenatal and one postnatal.  Sometimes just prenatal.  She has found that children will reveal things that were happening in the home before they were born that had never been discussed with them. Proving that they were too also experiencing the circumstances consciously.

Maternal experiences such as depression, previous reproduction loss, drug, alcohol, and tobacco use, poor nutrition, and domestic violence all seem to be the most altering prenatal experiences.  And it's no surprise considering the increased amount of cortisol (stress hormone) that would be released in the mother and baby.

In the book The Fetal Matrix: Evolution, Development and Disease it states that cortisol in high levels is toxic to the unborn child and infant.  Chronic high cortisol levels from high stress reduces the number of cells in organs, the nerve supply and the blood supply, thereby making them vulnerable to diseases later in life.  The book also claims that at least 50% of chronic diseases are prenatal in etiology (heart disease, coronary diseases, stroke, osteoporosis).

So what can we do?  Pregnant women should be treated with kindness and respect.  I know that is obvious but I feel like in our modern culture, pregnancy and motherhood is not looked at a highly important job.  Women are pushed to continue productivity and function as if nothing has changed.  Women that are both pregnant and mothering small children should be viewed as doing the most important job on the planet: creating and raising our future.

Ways mothers can slow down and connect with their baby while pregnant:


1) Talk to your baby.  Respond to movement.  Remember there's a little person in there and they are more aware then you can imagine.

2.) Get prenatal massage.  Getting massage relaxes you and benefits your baby.  I got massaged throughout my pregnancy and my baby even got gently massaged.  Make sure you go to someone trained in prenatal massage.

3.) Go to yoga.

4.) Play music for your baby

5.) Be conscious of what you eat. Your baby can taste through the amniotic fluid.  Feed yourself and your baby yummy nutrient dense foods.

6.) Avoid stress, fighting, drama etc as much as you can.  Remember that everything you experience your baby does also.

7.) Relax.  Even if things in your life aren't perfect (which no one's is) just try your best to create a harmonious life and refer back to number 1...talk to your baby.  Explain situations and let your baby know that the way you are feeling has nothing to do with them.



With so much love,

xoxo

Nancy





This article was inspired by a workshop I attended with Myrna Martin.



 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

The Healing Power of Touch


Touching – The Human Significance of the Skin” by Ashley Monagu.

The languages of the senses, in which all of us can be socialized, are capable of enlarging our appreciation and of deepening our understanding of each other and the world in which we live. Chief among these languages is touching. The communications we transmit through touch constitute the most powerful means of establishing human relationships, the foundation of experience. Where touching begins, there love and humanity also begin – within the first minutes following birth.”




For years my daughter was given four choices for her bedtime activity. One, breastfeeding in her favorite pink rocking chair (or when she was older, a story that I would make up while rocking her, which always challenged my creativity, especially when I was tired); two, would be reading a story in bed (easy); three, would be tickle-drawings on her back where I would draw pictures and she would guess what they were (fun); and four, a healing touch session where she would choose an area of her body that she wanted me to massage (my favorite).

Granted, as a licensed massage therapist, it was a no brainer for me to include healing touch/massage in my daughter’s well-being care, starting with her first full body infant massage when she was only three days old. Lucky girl! She always slept so much better after her massage and in general seemed more at peace. When she was 8 weeks old, while massaging her, I noticed a very strange golf-ball sized lump protruding from her intestinal area that would come and go. This was a frightening discovery and soon confirmed that she had a hernia. At twelve weeks old my precious home-birthed child had a double hernia operation. Handing her over to the anesthesiologist was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do in my 24 years of being a parent. All went well. Afterwards, both giving and receiving massage, and healing touch helped both of us recover from the trauma of that event. Just like with breastfeeding, massage naturally stimulates the body’s happy hormone response (for both the one giving and the one receiving), circulating relaxation endorphins and oxytocin throughout the body, opening the senses to be more receptive to healing and aiding the body in it’s desired release of stress-related tension.

Even most nights of her teen years, the ole’ bedtime ritual was asked for; with either reading to each other or healing touch being the teen-receptive categories she would choose from. Nurturing touch with our teenagers often opens up gateways of communication and intimacy that would not otherwise be available. I was both grateful and humbled that my daughter would disclose personal issues with me in confidence, during massage. Often these issues would be the subjects of our conversations for nights to come, until she was complete with what was troubling her.

Depending on what the current developmental challenges are for your children/teens, whether it be social, school-related or physical, nothing quite meets those needs like nurturing touch. Leg cramps, headaches, exam anxiety, social stress, menstrual cramps and the like, all respond beautifully to the loving care you can offer through healing touch.

Some of my fondest memories of my daughter as a child and teen, are of her falling fast asleep while I gently held her head in my hands, my fingertips massaging her neck and base of her skull (occiput). Professionally speaking, some of you may know this as cranio-sacral therapy. The truth is, with sensitivity and care anyone can offer intentional healing through touch to their children as well as other family members and friends. Nurturing touch can have a powerful impact on your children’s lives. Your children learn gratitude, respect for their bodies, healthy boundaries and how to relax with touch that is laced with love and sensitivity.


To get you started, here are three simple nurturing touch tips that you can offer your children.

  • Simply Be more mindful about how you touch your children. There’s touch that serves many functions like dressing, bathing, braiding hair etc. and there’s touch that serves to nurture, heal and relax children like rubbing their back, holding them close after a rough tumble or fall, rocking them to sleep. Create a balance of these two forms that touch can serve. We’re often so busy, that the majority of our touch falls into the function category, especially as our children get older and move away from a body-centered relationship with us and into a socially engaged relationship with the bigger world.
  • If you’re not used to offering healing touch/massage, it may seem awkward at first to offer. Some kids will like it if you make a big deal out of it, and some kids rather you not. How much you engage them in this new venture of yours depends on your kids. With the latter, you can offer them a good ole’ foot massage while your watching a movie together. Start with just rubbing their feet, even over their socks. Usually firm touch and gentle squeezes prevent the tickle response. If you want, you can graduate to using lotion, which works best on the skin of feet vs. oil – you can get more friction. And you can even educate yourself about the benefits of foot reflexology and really apply your healing intentions. OR, for kids that would respond to more of fanfare, if you already have a bedtime routine, tell them you have something new that you learned and want to share with them, that they can choose as one of their bedtime activities. And hey…you bought some special oil and lotion just for the occasion (don’t be surprised if they want to lather YOU up with the oil and lotion! Oh and best to stay away from petroleum-based oils. Try almond or jojoba oil).
  • And finally, try this: Ask your child where on their body it feels hurt or sad or frustrated (if they’re babies, trust your intuition to guide you). Now, rub your hands together fast til they warm up. Then, place your hands gently on that area or simply hold their hands, head or feet in your hands. Now imagine the palms of your hands heating up with warmth, sending healing love from your heart, through the palms of your hands to them. Breathe and relax while you do this. Encourage your child to breathe too. Breathe and let go of all the thoughts of the day. Breathe and let Love heal them.



Elizabeth Rose has practiced and taught Massage for the Childbearing Year for 25 years, attended 100+ births as a Labor Support Doula, and is co-founder of www.MothersMandala.com with Elenya Grafals – the umbrella organization for their work. Most recently, she has become a Family Constellation Facilitator in the tradition of Bert Hellinger’s intergenerational healing work. She is also a mother to her inspiring 24 year old daughter, Maia. 





Saturday, March 8, 2014

M A R C H



WEEK OF MAR 2- MAR 8

Sun Mar 2   Quick Course for Childbirth Prep at Indigo Baby
Mon Mar 3 10 am FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby
                   10 am Nature Playtime for Toddlers & Preschoolers @ Pajarito Environmental                                                     Education Center in Los Alamos
                   3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center

Tues Mar 4 10:30am Preschool Story Time at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                   1 pm  Many Mothers circle at Santa Fe Soul sun room
                   6 pm Breastfeeding class w/ Birthing Tree
                    
Wed. Mar 5 10:30 am Wee Wednesday at Santa Fe Children's Museum
                    10:30 am Preschool Story Time at Southside Library in Santa Fe
                    10:30 am Books and Babies at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                    10:45 Children's Story Hour at Collected Works in Santa Fe
                     3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center
                     4:45 & 5:45 FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby

Thurs Mar 6 10:30 am Book and Babies at Southside Library in Santa Fe
                     10: 45 Children's Story Hour at Collected Works in Santa Fe
                     10:45 am Prenatal Yoga w/ Margo Bachman at Body in Santa Fe
                     4 pm 0-12 month Mommy Meetup Playdate at Indigo Baby
                     4pm Try it Thursday FREE at Santa Fe Children's Museum
                     6 pm Childbirth prep series at Indigo Baby
                     6:30 pm Prenatal/Postnatal Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Los Alamos

Fri Mar 7 9am Tumble Tots at Tumble Down Studios
                10 & 11am FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby
                10 am Garden Sprouts: Pre-K reading program at  Railyard Community Room in Santa Fe
                10 am Parent and Me Art Class at Make Orange Studio School in 2nd St. Studios in SF
                12:30 pm Baby Sleep Solutions w/ Tekla Johnson at Indigo Baby
                 3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center

Sat. Mar 8  9:30 am Prenatal/Postnatal Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Santa Fe
                  10 am Baby Care Basics at Indigo Baby
                  11am Baby & Parent Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Santa Fe
                  1 pm Mama Tea at Indigo Baby
                  2: 30 pm Family Movie Matinee at Southside Library in Santa Fe

 

WEEK OF MAR 9- MAR 15

Sun Mar 9 11am Essential Oils for Pregnancy at Indigo Baby               
                 1 pm Parent Talk at Santa Fe Children's Museum

Mon Mar 10 10am FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby
                     10 am Nature Playtime for Toddlers & Preschoolers @ Pajarito Environmental                                                Education Center in Los Alamos
                      3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center

Tues Mar 11 10:30am Preschool Story Time at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe

Wed. Mar 12 10:30 am Wee Wednesday at Santa Fe Children's Museum
                     10:30 am Books and Babies at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                     10:30am Preschool Story Time at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                     10:45 Children's Story Hour at Collected Works in Santa Fe
                     3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center
                     4:45 & 5:45 pm FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby

Thurs Mar 13 10:30 am Books and Babies at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                      10: 45 Children's Story Hour at Collected Works in Santa Fe
                      10:45 am Prenatal Yoga w/ Margo Bachman at Body in Santa Fe
                       1 pm La Leche League at Indigo Baby in Santa Fe
                       4pm Try it Thursday FREE at Santa Fe Children's Museum
                       6 pm Childbirth prep series at Indigo Baby
                       6:30 pm Prenatal/Postnatal Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Los Alamos

Fri Mar 14 9am Tumble Tots at Tumble Down Studios
                 10 & 11am FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby in Santa Fe
                 10 am Garden Sprouts: Pre-K reading program at  Railyard Community Room in SF                         10 am Parent and Me Art Class at Make Orange Studio School in 2nd St. Studios in SF
                 3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center
                 7 pm FREE Family Movie Night at Vista Grande Public Library in Eldorado

Sat Mar 15 9 am February Fun Fest at Sipapu Ski Resort in Vadito NM
                   9:30 am Prenatal/Postnatal Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Santa Fe
                   11 am Parent and Baby Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Santa Fe
                   11 am Baby Wearing 101 at Indigo Baby in Santa Fe

                  11:30 am Cloth Diapering Basics at Indigo Baby in Santa Fe
                   2: 30 pm Family Movie Matinee at Southside Library in Santa Fe

WEEK OF MAR 16 - MAR 22

Sun. Mar 16 2pm Traditional Baby Wearing at Indigo Baby

Mon. Mar 17 10am FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby
                      10 am Nature Playtime for Toddlers & Preschoolers @ Pajarito Environmental                                                Education Center in Los Alamos
                       3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center

Tues Mar 18 10:30am Preschool Story Time at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe

Wed. Mar 19 10:30 am Wee Wednesday at Santa Fe Children's Museum
                      10:30 am Books and Babies at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                      10:30am Preschool Story Time at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                      10:45 Children's Story Hour at Collected Works in Santa Fe
                       3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center
                      4:45 & 5:45 pm FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby

Thurs Mar 20 10:30 am Books and Babies at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                       10: 45 Children's Story Hour at Collected Works in Santa Fe
                       10:45 am Prenatal Yoga w/ Margo Bachman at Body in Santa Fe
                       4pm Try it Thursday FREE at Santa Fe Children's Museum
                       6 pm Childbirth Preparation Classes w/ Birthing Tree
                       6 pm Breastfeeding Class at Indigo Baby
                       6:30 pm Prenatal/Postnatal Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Los Alamos

Fri Mar 21 9am Tumble Tots at Tumble Down Studios
                  10 am Garden Sprouts: Pre-K reading program at  Railyard Community Room in SF
                  10 & 11 am FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby
                   3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center

Sat. Mar 22 8am FREE online parenting class "Understanding Your 2-5 Yr Old" w/ Abby Bordner
                           Prereg. HERE
                    9:30 am Prenatal/Postnatal Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Santa Fe
                    11 am Parent and Baby Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Santa Fe
                    1 pm Mama Tea at Indigo Baby
                    2: 30 pm Family Movie Matinee at Southside Library in Santa Fe 

 

WEEK OF MAR 23 - MAR 29

Sun Mar 23 1pm Moving into Motherhood at Indigo Baby

Mon Mar 24 10 am FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby
                     10 am Nature Playtime for Toddlers & Preschoolers @ Pajarito Environmental                                                Education Center in Los Alamos
                      3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center

Tues Mar 25 10:30am Preschool Story Time at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe

Wed. Mar 26 10:30 am Wee Wednesday at Santa Fe Children's Museum
                     10:30 am Books and Babies at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                     10:30am Preschool Story Time at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                     10:45 Children's Story Hour at Collected Works in Santa Fe
                     3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center
                     4:45 & 5:45pm FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby

Thurs. Mar 27 10:30 am Books and Babies at Oliver La Farge Branch Library in Santa Fe
                        10:45 am Prenatal Yoga w/ Margo Bachman at Body in Santa Fe
                       4pm Try it Thursday FREE at Santa Fe Children's Museum
                       6pm Childbirth Preparation Classes w/ Birthing Tree

Fri Mar 28 9am Tumble Tots at Tumble Down Studios
                  10 & 11 am FAM JAM! at Indigo Baby
                  10 am Garden Sprouts: Pre-K reading program at  Railyard Community Room in SF
                  10 am Parent and Me Art Class at Make Orange Studio School in 2nd St. Studios in SF
                   2 pm Essential Oils for Labor and New Mother at Indigo Baby
                   3:30pm After School Climbing at Santa Fe Climbing Center

Sat. Mar 29 930 am Prenatal/Postnatal Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Santa Fe
                    10:30 am Baby Sleep and Nap Solutions at Indigo Baby
                    11 am Parent and Baby Yoga w/ Sphere Mama in Santa Fe
                    2: 30 pm Family Movie Matinee at Southside Library in Santa Fe

Friday, March 7, 2014

Having My Second




I didn’t reach my decision to have a second child easily. I love my first child with my whole heart and body. It is a dream come true to have my son. Being a Mother consumes me and gives me deep joy and satisfaction in my life. Yet, I was unsure about a second.

My son was approaching his fourth birthday and most of my friends had already had their second child, some even pregnant with their third. I hadn’t felt the strong urge to get pregnant again although I started to feel that there was another spirit child waiting to come through me. I couldn’t let it go. It began to consume me. I was getting very clear that I wanted my second. Fortunately, my partner was supportive and soon I became pregnant with number two.

I started to be plagued with anxiety. I feared that my son’s life would be greatly disrupted. I was concerned that I wouldn’t be able to love another child as much as my first. I worried that I wouldn’t be able to function on no sleep and constant breastfeeding when I also had my 4 year old needing me. I couldn’t imagine going through the newborn “fog” again. I worried that the birth would go too fast (really). I was mourning my one on one relationship with my first child.

I also felt more confident the second time around. I’d done this before. I didn’t have all the questions and concerns about pregnancy, birth and infants. For all the planning and focus I had with the first, the second was the opposite. We didn’t have a name picked out. I didn’t go to prenatal yoga. We didn’t have a baby shower. I didn’t get the attention I got the first time. The relatives weren’t sending gifts or planning to visit. I felt like, “Life will just go on as normal when this new one arrives.” She’ll be able tojoin the momentum of family life, strapped onto my body in a carrier. I experienced overwhelming gratitude for this second child coming to bless our family. And, the lucky thing she has that my first didn’t, is a big brother.

Some ways to help an older sibling prepare and adjust:
  • Tell stories about when he was a baby
  • Show him pictures of when he was a baby
  • Ask him to help with simple tasks (although don’t force him to help with the baby)
  • Don’t compare the two children (even little things; “she doesn’t cry as much as you did”, “she is growing faster than you did”)
  • Acknowledge feelings; even if he says “I don’t like the baby” reflect back that all the changes with the new baby may be hard for him.
Well, the truth is, I was surprised how my life changed with a second. My time, my energy, my strength was zapped away from me during the first three months with my newborn. I fell in love with my newborn and enjoyed breastfeeding, co-sleeping and smelling that sweet spot on her head. My son loved his baby sister and loved the joy that washed over our family. My son’s life wasn’t actually compromised; it was enhanced by another person that totally adores him.

Some things to do for a Mom having her second:
  • Make her family food
  • Take her older child out for a special outing
  • Hold her baby for her
  • Offer to accompany her when she has to go somewhere
  • Make her family food
  • Bring a small gift for the older sibling (and one for Mom is nice, too)
  • Offer to pick some things up for her at the store
  • Make her family food!!
My best practice as a Mother is to notice the variety of feelings that I have about my children. I have learned to breathe, count to 10, open my heart with a lift in my sternum, smile and wait. Most feelings swirl around; anxiety, fear, concern but when I actively calm myself all that lies beneath is extreme gratitude, joy, love and peace.

What were your feelings about deciding to have OR not to have a second child? 


Abby is a parent educator, speaker and writer. You can find her blog, programs and information at www.relationshipbasedparenting.com